I’ve debated on writing about this since it’s personal but decided I would but not include all the details but just write all my emotions.
Yesterday should have been a wonderful and a happy day, a day of celebration but it was not. It was a day of sadness, heartbreak and selfish people.
It really shows you who is important to you and people who just don’t care. It’s family, you’d think that’d mean something but has definitely not.
I can’t even tell you how torn I am with family and how my husband and I were treated.
I wish those people knew how much they ruined that day of us and it was a once in a lifetime thing and honestly, NO ONE cared about it, about US.
No one would talk to me, gave me dirty looks, talked about me behind my back and so much more. Never thought I’d feel so alone surrounded but so much family.
I barely got any apologies and I couldn’t forgive and I still can’t. Not sure when I can let this go but definitely not anytime soon.
I hate that but if no one cared about us, I just can’t care about them.
The comment that made it all so much worse is that they would of rather had my husband there instead of me.
I should have left right then and there, no one deserved what I was offering, no one but the person and the ONLY reason I came for.
No one asked me if I was coming to the after events, no one asked me anything.
Am I not family? Just because I married into this family, doesn’t that make me family? Why do I always feel like I don’t belong?
As much as this hurt, it really shows you who thinks you’re important and shows you who doesn’t deserve you in their life.
So I’ve decided to cut them out of my life, my family’s life. Selfish people don’t need to be in my already hard life.
I was so glad when I could finally leave. I went home and told my husband everything that happened.
He did text me in the middle of the event and told me just to leave and come home.
That I don’t need to be treated like this. Why didn’t I just listen to him?
After I was done telling him and bawling my eyes out, he hugged me and told me it was okay.
It felt good to feel loved after a whole day of hate.
I also grabbed a hug from all my kids and that’s all I needed. They are my world and no one offends me or my family without me being a mama bear.
That’s what I turned into today, big time.
Glad we could go to the Temple open house last night. Felt so good and I went with my little family and it was perfect.
As I sit here writing this, all those family members are together. So happy and probably not giving me or my family another thought.
I obviously am not going, how could I? No one even cared to send me a text or a call me to see if I was coming.
Just more reasons these people are selfish.
Those are my thoughts and feelings.